charles bukowski and me and amazon.com
all the bitter, miserable, lonely people feeling short-changed,
feeling betrayed by the forces, they blame life, they blame
circumstances, they blame others while actually
are totally unappetizing, dutifully unoriginal, they are
cowardly and placid, sunk in self-pity, having done
nothing right, they still feel wronged, swarming the earth with
their grievances, their hatreds -
dead-eyed in the center of nowhere, these millions of human
errors, going day to day and night to night through
their castrated motions,
it hurts the very earth, it hurts everything,
the horror of all this
we were young
it was a most
makes each word
Go To: The Masses - Luck - Half Way There
The Masses and Luck by Charles Bukowski
from SEPTUAGENARIAN STEW: STORIES & POEMS
Copyright © 1990. Published by Black Sparrow Press, 24 Tenth Street, Santa Rosa, CA 95401
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Half Way There
Old surfer's party at the Big Yellow House in Summerland, CA - April 10, 1999
sitting at the table after eating a 20 dollar dinner
downing 2 tequilas neat
next to the guy next to me is this guy named larry.
I haven't seen this guy larry for a long time
and here he is with long hair talking to this guy I've known for years
like ray kunze who happens to 'work' at the ranch
ya the hollister ranch
so me being bright (an all)
reaches over ray with my hand out saying
"larry?.... bill's friend? I'm bill's friend, tom"
he looks at me and takes my hand
and says, "ya, ya, like tom, ah....?"
he's tryin to put the whole thing together
not believing I'm the same guy who knows bill
and here I sit next to a guy who knows me
and who he knows really well and we're all just sitting there
throwin the bull and shovlin the shit
and we all know each other and have some cross links in there too.
so later I'm sitting on this couch next to ray's girlfriend
and I ask her to dance with me
and she says sure and gives me her hand
and we dance.
it ain't great and I'm tryin to show off
hey, this 60 year old can still move
but I forget to breath and pass out.
I pass out on the dance floor!
so the next thing I know I'm waking up on the couch
my face all wet and someone asks, "you OK?"
well duh. I'm here aren't I?
of course I'm OK so let's dance
and away we go
then the band stops playing
I say goodnight to those I know
the party's over
I drive home
I see her get out of the shiny car and cross the street with a strange walk.
a long slit runs from ankle to thigh up her long green dress. She walks as though her back hurts.
Her companion is a huge brown
His head shaved except for a center strip which terminates in a long braid hanging down his broad back.
She's petite and blond.
In the lobby we stand with others waiting for the elevator in the hotel.
The giant man has a gentle childlike voice. She turns. I catch her looking at me.
We ride together silently.
I get out, they ride on
Now in my room I wonder;
is this the woman in the hair salon who wanted to cut my hair and who seemed to have a problem with her back?
I sat waiting for my haircut
attracted to her.
She kept looking at me.
I wanted her hands on my head.
I wanted her to cut my hair
but when my turn came, she didn't have the clippers to buzz it and the "first come, first served" policy didn't allow us to meet.
Now here she is
dressed up, looking beautiful, going to the roof for dinner at the Marriott with her body-building boy friend.
thinking of her.
I admire her features - like looking at a new car in a showroom window
TMcB @ Marriott Hotel, Monterey, California October 25, 1997
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